OVERVIEW
The on field application of the 3 years and 1 semester, physical, theoretical, spiritual, emotional and mental preparation started last November 24, 2014.
We were assigned at Agdangan National High School at Agdangan, Baao, Camarines Sur. There was one week allotted for t adjustment. In that one week, we are expected to observe our cooperating teacher on hoe they are going to handle and facilitate their class and their lesson. I asked for a sample of a lesson plan but unfortunately they are just making DLL or the Daily Lesson Log. I also asked for a copy of the list of the Grade 8 and Grade 9 students.
My CT instructed me to buy a lesson plan, class record and necessary paraphernalia. She oriented me about the K-12 Curriculum, the guidelines that I will follow and a little detail of the KPUP Grading and TOS . After a week-long orientation, here comes the actual classroom teaching.
Dreams are the start of everything; it is the heart of motivation that drives us to dig dreams up. We may feel hardships at first but it will be replenished if you step at the stairs with courage and determination. One page is not enough to tell you the story I had but one page will give you images that I created. I really set my standard as the first step but my fault that I cannot carry it through all the way maybe because of pressure of doing two lesson plans everyday and maybe about my personal problems in life. I admitted all my weak points and tried it to become the strong points. I resist all the rumours that I have heard against me even if it injured my ego. These pains were ignored by me because it is not me who walk away with the problems but a person who face everything for the sake of my aspirations. I did everything to prove myself and auspiciously it seems that I bring back the real figure I made. Maybe, I felt envy with other student teachers who always had a great evaluation but I already understood that I don’t have to because I know how fair to be in this school. I know that I have the advantage because I had those struggles and frustrations. I learned to stoop down my pride and tried to ignore those criticisms and take it as a motivation.
Now, I always see myself as the luckiest student teacher because I really had the real experience that a teacher should have. I thank all those persons who resisted my theatrical life because of your comforts, I made everything possible. I want to give a one hundred fold thanks to my adviser for being supportive and understanding always. To my cooperating teachers who made me realized how hard to become a teacher, I thank you because even though I gave you headaches still you supported me all the way for success and you turned out my sight to a more brighter side. To my very loving best friend God, who always hear my prayer and never felt tired to understand and hear my cries always. I made everything possible because of you, Lord.
Now and then, I can say that I am proudly acclaiming myself as one of the successful student teachers even though I never had honors or any recognition. The most important thing is the experience I gained that made me strong and trained me to become ready with everything. It is simply not about the honor but the learning and values we gained from our experiences.
A Traumatic experience, These words fit my Off campus teaching experience at Agdangnan National High School because.
all throughout my stay there, all I got are humiliations, negative comments and gossips about me. This experiences have discourage me to engage into teaching.
In my first demo teaching my teacher made something that really made a mark between me and my students lesson, my cooperating interrupted in my discussion and stand in front of the class and said “ I will let ma’am to sit at the back because she is so traditional and it doesn’t fit K-12 “ although she checked my lesson plan before entering in that class after that I lost the guts to face my students but I tried to be strong I continued but as I checked my students journal I realized that my CT’s act also affect my students view on me as their teacher they said that I am too weak that is why my cooperating teacher is not satisfied on me.
My everyday routine is like a Massacre every morning whenever my CT checks my LP all I feel Is not motivation but discouragement she never looked at my accomplishments but rather look after all my mistakes I am not saying that I don’t want criticism but all I want is for here to keep those words confined between two of us because How could my student respect me if in my everyday existence they will always hear her saying many bad things about me.
When I and Sir Jerome participated in the English festival I thought that everything is alright but as I went to school I found out that my ct have already told my students that I am not going to teach them anymore, she have also told my students about my flows, my undertakings as I knew that I felt so down, I cried hard because I felt shame in my students. I am ineffective that is all it mean. after that day I did not went to school, I really want to quit but every time I think about my parents’ sacrifices... I know I cannot just give up that easy. The following day I forced myself to still finish my off camp.
She always tell me that I am lucky that she is my ct but for me that was the opposite.
Before my final demo, I didn’t had much time to prepare because the week before it is the foundation day preparation and that whole week we were obliged to practice the mass demonstration and also my ct asked me to submit the TOS and the test question for the pre final exam but when I submitted it one day before my demo she told me to add 25 more question although she knows that the following day is going to be my final demo she still asked me to submit it that day . It was really frustrating that time, I really don’t know what to prioritize. Its just good that ma’am Leny was there to give us pieces of advice and told me to prioritize my Demo.
In this off campus teaching I found out that not everything in this huge earth is perfect. There will always be people who will really bring you down and there will always be problems that will really challenge you emotionally.
I will surely never forget this stage, the stage that made me feel that I don’t belong in the teaching profession...
Like the other student teachers said, each teacher can recount numerous highs and lows in their teaching career. Personally, I experienced many great moments while teaching. These were days when I ended so happy and enthusiastic that I knew I had selected the right profession. On the other hand, I had days where I definitely questioned teaching as a career. These were days where the students seemed uninterested, too talkative, or even worse a blow up occurred and nothing got accomplished. Thankfully the average combined with the positive days outshines my negative days.
Before the off campus actual teaching, I had always thought what are things I have to prepare if I am already on the reality set up of becoming a teacher. Of course, I have to and always prepare my lesson plan, visual aid and especially myself. It’s really hard to prepare all these things everyday because you have always think the capacity of the students and abilities especially the lower sections, you will think of a strategy that the students will easily to understand or catch up the lesson. Like what our teachers in CDE said, you have to consider the below average students who have a difficulty on understanding the lesson, the thing you have to do is to reach the level of the students –thinking skills. The interaction with the students is very difficult, only some of the students in the lower sections are confidently cooperating during the lesson. But the thing is, I always make a joke on them so that those students who are not participating will have the courage to answer even though their answer is not correct. I assure that every student would feel comfortable with me. Honestly, there were times that every time I enter their room ,most of the student are making fond of me like saying pick up lines and mostly jokes which certainly makes me laugh heartily that almost consumed a couple of minutes just laughing all around. Those were the days I always reminisce, even though at the end of the day you almost like a zombie of tiredness. After you reach home, you want immediately to lie down and sleep to take some rest , on the other hand you will think every day is a fruitful one because you have imparted knowledge with every single students on the four corners of the room. I am very lucky as well as grateful because I met a wonderful and down to earth critic teacher ( Mrs. Corazon Boaquinia ) that I must say one of the great people I ever met in my entire life. She let me decide what sections I would be going to teach and she recommended some positive approach on how I will be going to conduct the lesson properly. I am also thankful because during the off campus days she treat me like her own daughter, she always treat my lunch and snacks that’s why I always saved my money every day. I also thank the teachers of AGDANGAN NATIONAL HIGH SCHOOL in guiding and reminding the things of being a good teacher all the way.
Through it I learned so much about teaching and dealing with students during the off campus teaching. These will prepare you on how you will be going handle your future students when you are already a professional teacher. This experience makes a lot of opportunity for us future teachers because we have applied the theory and concepts we have learned all throughout the discussion of profession education subjects.
